you...me...us...

it's been a minute...since i've wrtiten...since my hearts felt the necessity for words streaming from my soul.... usually i write with pain... but, i haven't felt pain with you...maybe a sense of self-confusion...but that's only self-inflicted and i've been able to reel it in before it gets too out of control!  and here we are.... i'm so excited for my future...that the words are all bundled up and aching to come out...but they only slip out like air escaping from under the door...like a little breeze...slowly, but soooo enticing, just like you put your hand, your fingers over the separation and feeling the air slip through your fingers...just a tease enough to want more... and you leave me wanting more...more of you...more of us... i want you... i want to love you... i want to be with you... i want to spend a night with you and wake in the morning... next to you... wanting you not to slip away... i want to feel you next to me... breathing your breathe... feel the rise and fall of you next to me... on me... i want to wake in the morning... smelling you... feeling the electricity of your fingers engulf my soul.... leaving me teased... for more of you... climbing into the shower.... with you... just knowing you... know me. there was a moment that i was afraid of you... afraid that i would fall in love with you... and that my heart would hurt when you went... i'm not afraid that you're going now... i'm not afraid that our hearts are meshing... for the first time in my life ever... i feel good about being with someone... wanting it to be good...and real and us. the idea of you leaves me striving for more... more of you.. more of me... more of us... and i'm smiling... my heart is smiling... my soul is smiling...