who are you....

who do you think you are.... to just show up in my life...talking about who you think i am...what you think you want from me...talking about how i look,how i write...talking little lies... who do you think you are... to come into my life...and talk of love and freedom for my soul...talking about me uprooting my life, talking about a life with you...talking about us... who do you think you are... convincing me to give you me, only for you to disrespect and tease with the lies you spew from that soft mouth... you tricked me and i don't know if it's your game... but you let me fall for you... you let me trust you... only to let me down... whoever you are now, is not who you were when you fancied yourself a follower... but, you tricked me into believing i was yours... and you were mine... and now, i'm left in confusion and pain in my heart... that you brought me... that you caused me... and i no longer trust you..and the lies that tumble from your existence... because i don't even know you... and exactly what i'd known would happen.... is happening... that one day, i'd wake to find... that you were only a dream...

when will i learn...

that just because you're charming, doesn't mean i need to be charmed... that just because you look different, doesn't mean you're not the same as the last one... that just because you have beautiful prose, doesn't mean you're a poet.... that just because you look like a sheep, doesn't mean you're not a wolf... when will i learn to not give me away... that it doesn't matter, who you are...i need to stay with the only ones i trust implicitly... i wanted so badly for this to be different....something real...and in the end it's always just the same... false.... and i think i must have done something terrible in my past life, because i keep finding you, over and over... it doesn't even matter the you... just that it's you... except i had hoped this you...would be different... would mean what he said and said what he meant... that when you spewed flawless syllables of love... perhaps it was real... that my heart had found it's mate and would finally fit... where it belonged... and how sadly i was mistaken... sadly... because you're never who you appear to be.... ever.