pieces of my soul...

Why is I think I deserve less than the next girl? Would I allow someone to treat my own daughter this way? No. Why have I given up my standards for his own enjoyment... Letting go sounds so simple and I have done it over and over and yet, I always fall prey to my own belief that if I just push a little more, give a little bit more of myself, let go of... me... that he'll see how great it can be. What a fool! If one of my friends did this over and over to herself, I'd reprimand and criticize! "what a fool you are, woman!" Then why, why, why do I do it to myself. Allow me to give pieces of my soul away... a little bit at a time. What am I so afraid of? That he won't come back? That he won't like me? That I may miss "the one"? And in reality, I know that if I'm not fully able to love myself, I can't love "him". I'm not stupid, I just struggle in this area so badly that I feel hopeless at times and don't know how to fix it. What a great distraction the "he's" are for me, from finding out who and what I really need. What and who I really am. I live from day to day, wondering if this is the day I will find myself. Find the me that lives freely in EVERY area of my life. Does anyone?