wow...

it amazes me everytime... when i'm given some direction and actually take it...how good i can feel in my soul... weird... i've struggled for months...pulling myself this way, no that, wait, maybe over here... and all the while mulling over certain things, that i know in my heart, and of course my head... but not until i'm told, or maybe until i quit holding onto it because i'm so tired of being the deciding factor...to do this or try that...do i actually find some peace... and it's been so so long since my heart hasn't ached... it feels full... with his love and guidance... *sigh*