it's almost....

that time... the time my life started over... that i was given new life... that i was deemed worthy to try again... this time, i'm alone... yet, not alone... alive.... and living... i remember on march 21, 2007 all i wanted was to not take another breath... all i wanted was the pain to stop... to be given either darkness or light.... one or the other.... and i was given light... the breathed new life into my soul... held my hand... loved me until i could love me... again.... my god, what a ride the last 2 years have been... and it's just beginning.... and i ask my god, everyday to show me the road he wants me to be on.... because sometimes i veer, i go off on my own... causing me enough pain... to want to be on his path.... get back to him.... know his plan for me... do his will....not mine.... to do my own is always painful...and tedious.... but, i've learned lessons...i've been given experiences... that others may never have to go through... because i did... and i want to live 100%.... from this day forward... not knowing what's in store... but unafraid... and full of faith...