how do they always know....

before me... my friends.... get red flags before i do... how do i go one week feeling full of love.... to the next full of confusion... how does that happen.... adored to not adored in a matter of seconds... and how do i always find you... will it always be YOU.... the same...but with a different name? why do i keep living this lesson over and over... and than i feel like just a fool... letting it go this long without seeing it for what it is... me giving and not receiving... and i'm used to it...but, i shouldn't be... all i want is for one guy to be about me... not in an obsessive or controlling way... just the way that i am into him... and i wonder every time it ends like this... will i ever find that? and in the meantime, i keep going through the same over and over and i'm tired... i'd rather be alone.