i feel brand new with you...

like i've never loved... how can that be? how can this all feel this new... like i've never given me away like this... a little at a time...piece by piece... like all i want is to know you.. what makes you tick... what you like... what you love... and i want you to love me... to grow to know me.... and love me anyways... and yet... even yesterday... my heart filled with fear... so afraid of what's in store... what if's... what if i give too much... and get hurt... or give too much and don't get loved back.... and the thought of running crossed my mind... like it was a solution to this feeling of love i'm feeling... but, i'm comfortable with you... like i've known you....always... but, i yearn for you...to be with you... to spend my life with you.... even though i have forever.... i want right now... and i feel brand new with you... and this is so much harder than i ever thought it would be... how easy it is to just say come... come to me... be with me... and to want it... but cant... i've never felt this feeling of wanting like i do with you... so far away and wanting you... i've never down this, i've never loved someone i couldn't have now.. somedays... my heart aches for you to the point of pain... a good pain, but still pain... and others i just feel contentment in the knowing that you're here... in my heart... with me.... but i want to be able to look you in the eye you see into my soul what i feel for you... my words... they're superfluous of my thoughts... but, my soul is what carries you... and gets me through.... *sigh* breathing... you... newness....